Sometimes you have to admit when you’re beat.
31 day blogging challenge? I’m beat. I’ve always been someone with plenty of intention. All kinds of intention. I just have a hard time on the follow-through. I was determined to write 31 posts on one topic, even if they weren’t published consecutively, but I realized that at least in this instance, my blind will to finish my commitment was keeping me from moving forward – I got stuck on 31 days, and let all kinds of other writing ideas and inspirations disappear into the creative ether.
There is something to be said for keeping a commitment for commitment’s sake. In fact, it’s something I want to practice much more. But not now, not today. Today I’m moving on.
Today I’m thinking about new things. About a new year, a new day, a new life. A new baby growing in my belly. An unexpected gift. Though logically I should be anxious, this new little one was so unplanned that I can’t do anything but accept. I smile to myself to think about this little secret seed I carry, safe and warm and hidden, in one of the coldest, dreariest months of the year.
I’m beat. I’m tired. But I’m hopeful and expectant. Things are changing as they always do. I’m letting them change, letting them pull me, lift me, take me somewhere new.
2 thoughts on “Starting Over”
I grew up in a different era, and women were NEVER said to be “pregnant.” The polite term was “expecting,” which– before I read your post– I always thought of as a euphemism…but oh how you’ve opened my eyes to the beautiful thought of what it is to be an “expectant mother!” Blessings on you and your beautiful family.
Your writing is so beautiful. Carry that little seed and keep it warm, it is truly a blessing to be a woman and be blessed with the gift of carrying a child, I never would have known how true that is until now – words can’t place any woman in this position of gratitude or awareness. It is in the silent moments, when its just the two of you and you feel a little foot tickling you from the the inside, that we are reminded of just how lucky we are to be here and to be women. You are a wonderful mom Melissa ~ Congratulations on your new growing baby.